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its april 2008.
and its been hell of a week.
i mean real hell.
what an emotional roller coaster ride.
i experienced happiness, pain, sadness, excitment, and so many other emotions
in just the first week of april.
let me tell you what happened.
2-4 april was the long awaited freshmen orientation.
3rd april night was EXCOs overnight at Val's house.
4th april at 12.30am i received a news from my bro that my grandmother passed away.
5th april - 8th april: went to attend her funeral.
imagine.
i really wanted to talk about all the good things
that i had been thru during FO and EXCOs overnight.
but nothing is coming for me to put in words
coz all that just went away in a minute when i heard my grandmom passed away.
i've never cried that much for a long time.
how do i put it in words..
imagine your whole family... cousins.. uncles..aunties...grandad all crying so loudly.
my hand is trembling when i write this but i can't help it.
i am so hurt.
if it wasn't for my so supportive cousins...
i think i would have a breakdown.
coz it was the first time when i saw a real coffin and a real dead person.
my grandmom.
so many memories just came crashing down.
altho i wasn't very very close with her...
but i still loved her.
all those times she used to buy for us ice kacang and bring us for shopping.
god.
god.
god.
i just dono what to write.
she was a good soul.
death changes a person.
true.
it has changed me.
my family.
im emotionally and mentally stronger.
at least im learning to be.
i am just so physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted at this point in time.
i dono what else to say.
coz no matter how much i say
i still won't feel better
i am in pain
i need some time
hopefully tmr will be a better day.
I LOVE YOU GRANDMA.
:(
