Friday, May 30, 2008
10:02 PM
shit.something is definitely wrong with me.i know.i really know.i hate myself now.the person i am now is not who i am or who i used to be.why?why?why?i don wanna hurt anyone.i don wanna hurt myself.i want to be happyand others around me to be happy too.but wad keeps flashingis the fake smiles.yeah. fake.especially at home.i know i wont be like this foreva.i will change.i know.got to take my mind off things when i went to pizza hut todaywith yamon, wawa, fil and shu fungthen we headed to catch indiana jonesfriends had been greatthey are super supportivethanks u guys!they can really make me happy:)i don want sunday to come.and if it comes, i hope all goes well.my future lies in it.and wad happens next will be decided on this sundaymy freaking future!i hope i dont hurt anyonei dont want to.going to america now doesn't seem fun infact it sucks.really.i dont wanna go.:(
